As little girls we always dream of the day we get our happily ever after, the white dress, the church, the handsome groom, friends and family, the whole 9 yards. One day I thought I had my happily ever after, but in reality, it was a short lived nightmare. I got married and 6 months later I was separated and on the road to divorce.
The pangs of divorce are rough, even when you are glad to be rid of the one you thought you loved. For the last two years my life has been filled with a lot of stress, a little drama, and other problems. I haven't been on any dates or had any relationships. I was o.k. with that, but now, I feel like I am ready to start again. Having that connection and being able to spend time with someone and cuddling, is something I have been missing, and that's not the only thing......
I absolutely love kids and babies, they have always been a part of my life. Like the happily ever after, a lot of girls can't wait for the day when they have babies, and I am one of those girls. I am the type that feels like they need to be needed or wanted. I like the feeling of taking care of people who give me meaning to my being. I have always wanted to have a family by the time I was 25. Now I know we don't get to pick our destinies, but a girl can dream, right? 25 is now, and I'm no longer married, nor do I have children, which is currently a blessing in disguise. But I feel even more "empty" now, then before I got married. I don't want to rush into anything by any means, but I do want to start walking slowly down the road of my true future. One day I will be blessed with all I am meant for, and when that day comes I'll be ready. I will be an amazing mother to any children I have, and I will be a wonderful wife, I have nothing but love to give to those who are lucky enough to want to love me in return.
M-sizzle
